Today is the 17th January 2008 . I'm sick, this time, it's physically sick . Sore throat, running nose and fever . Borrowed JieRui's thermometer when i woke up this afternoon, i'm 37.6 degrees warm, my voice - breaks down, i told her not to inform Mom about it, haven't take again because i know sure the temperature would go higher, whatever, i'm not going to care much . I don't know, just . . . don't want anyone to know about it, so i have to pretend that i'm as hyper as normal . =/ . I was hoping i could faint, in front of you and know how you react .

Working at MCP drives me crazy, i could imagine what i would be doing next time i found an accountant job, sitting on my desk the entire day facing nothing but invoices, purchase orders and lotsa lotsa MS Excel documents with millions of numbers. Leads me into thinking about a course change, but nope, i wouldn't change course, i'll get my diploma and see how things go . I shall try and endure for my job, till the contract ends . ='( . Coz i promise not to back out . Perserverance, Min !

CYA resumes last night, and it's such a coincidence that two different people had conversations with me, about you . I was shocked, one of which is your classmate . The other, ask of which why i had two jobs, why did i made myself so occupied, then i told him, i couldn't help but to be busy to stop myself from thinking like a fool . Then i asked myself, having two jobs and CYA, why so many ? Why am i escaping from facts ? Why you ? And why me ? The only heard of your name, reminds me of the chalet and movie, and the calls from you during late nights . Why haven't you call anymore ? Are you escaping too ? Or are you really that insensitive to not feel a single thing ?

After CYA last night, when off to Party World for Karaoke with Zhen, George, En, Rui and Jun . Wanted to drink, but orders are in per bottles, so Zhen said no . Then sang till 2am and had supper at some Chinese place . Man, the service sucks to the core . The China server took our orders sitting down . And then some stupid attitude they gave spoilt the mood . >( . Whatever, reached home at 4am and dropped dead . Then i asked myself before i sleep, is this the kind of life i want ? Do, work and play all day, ends up tired and comes home like a lifeless lad .

How was your valentine's day ? Well, for me, i worked at MCP from 0845hrs to 1800hrs, then off to SABA and worked till 2200hrs . Working all day, saw flowers all day, and saw couples all day, in front, beside, sometimes right under my nose . I wonder how many girls and boys come together . I wonder how many couples break up . I wonder how many boys got rejected . I wonder how many girls got rejected instead . I wonder how many couples fight and quarrel because of this day . I wonder how many couples got close because of today . I wonder how many marriage proposals was asked . I wonder how many couples got married today . I wonder how many got divorced . I wonder how many couples fake up smiles and got things on when all they feel is nothing for the opposite . I wonder how many, like me, only got one hand up for a clap .

WHERE ARE YOU ? ? ! ! For god sake, call me ! ='((( . Why do i always always fail at these kinda things ? I never pass, not once . =((( .

I'm sick, do you know ? I miss you, do you know ? I was hoping you could call, do you know ? If you ask, i would agree, DO YOU KNOW ? If you're straight forwards more, things could have been better, do you know . . . ?

That's it, i think i'm going to rest abit . My throat is burning every breathe i make, the air i breathe out is very warm, and my head is pumping like some heart - headache, and my heart is crying .

Will blog again soon . To Shirley, Adeline and Martin going to Perth Study Trip, have a fun time ok ? Will miss you guys . Bye .